I sometimes think that I am the most ungrateful person in the world and really need a good kick in the butt. I take for granted the amazing lifestyle I have been blessed to live, that it will always be here, that this is just the ways things are and honestly, in a world full of uncertainty that is a really stupid thing to do! I think that we as humans have been so conditioned to bitch and complain about things that we really don’t even know what it is to be grateful. I know I definitely fall into this category and I have made the conscious decision to stop. You see, unless we make decisions consciously, they just become more words rattling around in our brains that get pushed to the back, but to make a conscious decision, we are pushing these words to the front and really focusing on what we need to do.
As a woman of Faith I pray everyday, but even so, I get lost in all the daily crap that doesn’t quite ‘suit’ me. As a praying woman, I should know better, but still we remain human. Today I am grateful. As I sit in my office overlooking our bull paddock, I am grateful, even if I can see other houses around me, I am grateful, even if this farm isn’t as isolated as I would like, I am grateful, even though our bank balance is less than ordinary, I am grateful. I make the conscious decision to be grateful for a husband who puts up with SO much crap during my midlife crisis called menopause, who hugs me when I feel like just going to sleep and never waking up, who always tells me it’s going to be ok. I am grateful that I have fresh water to drink, fresh air in my lungs and food on the table. We have forgotten the simple things that a tonne of people are so desperate to have. I am grateful for a job that provides us with this amazing lifestyle and for a country where free expression is still a thing!
This week is going to be a great week, menopause can bite me because I am not going to let it win. This week I am an overcomer! This week I am a soldier and gratitude is my weapon!